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Yes, it’s a new year, but I’m still the same ol me.  The me that has commitment issues. The me that self-sabotages. The me that has fears.  It’s that fear that causes the lack of commitment and self-sabotage.  Took me a while to learn this about myself.

 To live a fuller life, I must say hello to my fear, greet it and move past it.

It keeps me from doing what I love, writing, and from being a better person.  Better attitude, health, well-being, fitness and goal ACHIEVER!  

I miss writing.  I miss pouring my soul out and feeling lighter.  I miss the joy I used to feel from writing in my blog regularly.  So, I’m going to write.  I’m going to write about me and be as transparent as I can be.

Adifferentd is going lifestyle…lol

I don’t know what that means to you but to me that means…everything that goes on in my life.

Work struggle

Planner addiction

Food

Health & Fitness

Well-Being

“Leisure” and

General grumpiness.

I promise to keep it interesting (as much as I can). 

There may be times where I focus on a particular topic longer than others, but my goal here is to just write and not get tied down to one area of no expertise…lol

I'm looking forward to this.  becoming reacquainted with me while reacquainting with you.

Hello, I’m D. Pleased to meet you.

You Know What Time It Is!

It was a long Summer and Fall.  What have I been up to? Nothing.  I started working part time in retail because it is extremely hard to find a job in what I do, for some reason.  Anywho.

All of the life events discouraged me, stressed me, took away my confidence and I have basically been feeling completely out of control.  Two years ago I was began my fitness journey, today, I could have been at goal weight twice, like seriously.
 

I came into Fall super disappointed with myself…I had been basically making excuses for months.  The eating was… out.of.control.  I’m not a binge eater, I’m a eat what-the-f%ck-I-want eater… I became addicted to the sugar, again,  but because it was lightly sweetened Dark Chocolate I told myself it was ok.  And it is… in moderation…smh.

So, as winter approached I began to feel the lack of control.  I began to see how out of control I was… not just with my fitness but in my life as well.  I don’t like being out of control.

So,  I started making list and creating my version of order one check mark at a time.

Here I am. I’m not going to pick up where I left off. I’m pushing the reset button.  I am beginning a new journey…knowing now what I learned then.  So you won’t read about me pissing and moaning about my past journey.  This right here is fresh off the presses…lol

One thing that remains the same is my goal diggin’ whorebag ways.  I love setting goals. Daily, Weekly, Monthly, Quarterly…lol I don’t like resolutions they are propaganda…lol…I need things that I can see and measure, and “Smile more” just doesn’t cut it for me… oop!

I have tried many different ways to track my fitness and fitness goals. I have purchase fitness planners…pointless and I have used spiral notebooks.  It’s important to track your journey…see what your goals are, see what you have eaten and braindump how much the day sucked, how you feel, etc.  I need to be able to customize according to my needs. I like the notebooks but I wanted something that I could throw in my purse.

I use a couple of Midori inserts that I purchased on Amazon, decorated the cover with some scrapbook paper and customized the pages for me and I love them. 

I have one that is for my goals; Yearly, monthly and quarterly and one for fitness, tracking my food, my exercise with a little journaling. Ahhh Peace

I have several personal goals and a few fitness goals

I have a nice Fitness “To-Do” List.  I am going to tackle each one this year…but I don’t want to get overwhelmed by trying to accomplish them all at once.

So here they are:

1.   Lose weight – Year

2.   Complete a Whole30 – Month (yup a Whole30)

3.   Write in blog – Week

Each one of these goals comes with tasks…way too much to share…lol Overall you see what I have going on.

I’m excited about this Whole30…it’s like the ultimate!! I’m at the end of day one and I’m STARVING!! However, I’m so into this I must completely this…Its exciting the possibilities…

Downside… my 40^th birthday is next week and that means no alcohol and no cake, or suffer the consequences of having to start over… boooo!

Do I enjoy my birthday or do I press on through the birthday and remain Whole30 compliant?

I'm joining Jill Conyers with her  Living a Life of Fitness Health & Happiness Link Up!

Just D.

Like the Air I breathe...

Today I'm plagiarizing...lol

 * shrug *

In order for me to stay motivated and get going I first need a bit of Inspiration.
Mr Hamilton @ Get In Shape  Athletics sends a wonder email 2, 3 sometimes 4 times a week.
The email I got today was the boost I needed to keep my mind right and my mental together.

"Step One: Get Focused.
The holidays happened. You ate things from your “never eat these” list, you drank more that you should have, but now it’s over. 

Draw a line in the sand. The bad eating stops now. 

Don’t beat yourself up for falling off the fitness wagon this once. Simply get back up, dust yourself off and get re-focused. Leave the past, and your slip-ups, in the past. 

Step Two: Get Hydrated.
While bad eating can take on many forms, the end result is most often dehydration and water retention. The only way to restore balance is to get hydrated. 

Your first priority in getting back on track is to drink plenty of water throughout your day. Start with a tall glass of water in the morning, and carry a water bottle with you. 

Don’t add artificial sweeteners or stimulants to your water – these will work against your hydration efforts. To add flavor, slice fresh fruit, herbs or vegetables to place in your water, just like at the spa. 

Step Three: Get Picky.
For the next few days I need you to be extra picky about what you eat. Stick with only whole, real foods like fruits, vegetables and some lean meat. Whole, real foods will quickly help to restore balance. 

Don’t eat packaged foods for the next few days. This means saying no to snack foods, processed meat slices, dairy, baked goods and alcohol. 


Step Four: Get Moving.
So you've put an end to the eating madness, you've hydrated and you've eaten only whole foods …it’s now time to sweat it out. 

Lace up your athletic shoes and put on your favorite gym clothes. When you start your workout, ease in slowly. Take the time to warm up and stretch your muscles before powering up to a solid 30-minute exercise routine. "

Who doesn't like this kind of motivation to get back on the good foot and move forward.
I'm a believer in consistency and the past 7 or 8 months i have been horrible at it.  That ends.  I have spent many moments thinking about where I could be now with/in my journey and beating myself up about it...that ends. * shrug * I'm human, I get sidetracked and distracted.  I'm imperfect.
I'm not going to continue to dwell on things that I can't change. That is time gone.
I am focusing on today, tomorrow and beyond.  
Being consistent
Staying focused on my 2015 goals &
Mental discipline

YAAAAY!!!

Today's Link - up crew includes!!!
Open Slather – One Mother Hen
Marvelous in My Monday – Healthy Diva Eats
Manic Monday – On The Daily Express
Mingle Monday – Life of Meg

D.  

December Dump...

Welcome December!!!

Love the month because it's one month closer to my BIRTHDAY! However, I’m not a fan of Christmas….I am all about the Reason for the season, but all those other things…nah

Why?

• I hate shopping
• I loathe spending money on anything that is not a necessity
• Ungrateful folks. (my spoil kiddies...lol)

I love Thanksgiving. All the same food and family without the hassle of gift giving!

So keep the annoyance and aggravation down, that Christmas Holidays bring I decided to combat it with a fitness exercise challenge.

Before I get into that

Let me first document my December Goals:

The Holiday are a lazy, grazing time…Its times like this that I’m glad my boss is a scrooge ( not holiday food, treats or fun in office).  It’s very easy to fall off the wagon between Thanksgiving and New Years…sheesh lawd yes it is…

NOT THIS YEAR!!

With that being said,  I decided I needed a little challenge. Just to keep me going during the season of food and shoveling shit in mouth.  Last year in one of my group on MyFitnessPal, we did a challenge called December 24 Challenge. The purpose was to get moving for at least 24 exercise minutes in the month.

I LOVE IT!

It has not only challenged me physically but it has challenged me to schedule my workouts and get my time together. 

Another wonderful thing about it!  I have an opponent, an adversary, a challenger.  HAHAHAHAHA (evil laugh).

What’s a challenge without a little friendly competition and a TROPHY!! Yup a TROPHY!! Bragging rights and a Victory dance!!!

I have been exercise crazy!!!!

Day 1, December 1^st I was on the treadmill for 1 hour 50 mins…. TF!!!??

I hate the treadmill but *singing* “baby, it’s cold outside’ and I know I can get the walking in if I just get on the dreaded treadmill.

I have been getting up at 5am (every other day) to get at least 30mins in then an hour or more in the evening.

Nothing like a trophy to get my ass motivated…LMAO!!

So here is a little photo dump of how  Week 1 (Dec 1-5) went. The weekend...hmmmm I really wanted to exercise and I'm mad that I missed valuable minutes but my niece and nephew were in town and i just wanted to play with them.

Dec 1

Dec 2

Dec 2

 I couldn't get a pic of Dec 3rd, I don't know how to find them in the Polar watch...lol

Dec 4

Dec 5

 Dec 5th I had a Date with my Sister for her birthday and my bff, so I figured instead of no minutes I would at least do a few. * shrug *

Big Sis in middle...XOXO

Feeling great and motivated by this challenge has put me in the mood to do T25 Alpha again.

I love T25.  Doing it made me feel Strong.  I lost mega inches and was powerful as hell.  It definitely built my exercise confidence.

So I decided to start that on the first day of Winter, which I believe is the 21^st or 22^nd…so soon…sheesh. I'm determined, however, to not let the Holidays jack with my goals.

I want to build endurance and kill FAT!!!!

thank you so much for reading my post today.

I'm and working really hard to schedule more writing time...

Pray for me!

Merry Hump Day!

and Happy Blog Hop and Link Up 

Diatta's Workout Wednesday

D.     

Friday Before Official Summer...

IT'S FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!

After Scalegate last week, (here) I took the weekend and thought long and hard about my goals, myself and the point of it all.
I got my head in order.  Mental discipline is hard.  I often talk myself out of and into  A LOT of bullshit.  Unhealthy bullshit.

I decided (again) that I want this. That I'm better than sadness i feel and the excuses I make. When in reality and it's scientifically proven, that exercise makes you feel better, emotionally as well as physically.
I like exercising, but I have let personal stuff give me excuse to feel sorry for myself and not do what I know I should be doing. (figured all that out over the weekend...HA!)

This week I hit the ground rolling.
I didn't let excuses get in my way AND I even had a partner this week!

I wrote out the menu, we grocery shopped and prepped what need to be prepped.
Its been a pretty awesome week!

Below is a sample of the menu this week.  I was toooooo tired and lazy to type everyday on the QWERTY.

I burned a fair amount of calories this week and it's not over yet!

Took it to the street and a breakfast #MealPrep

Elliptical and Strength Training

Sat in Atlanta traffic AND heat for 2 hours...I did a nice HIIT,
 lots of Jumping Jacks and Squats!

2 Mile Walk!

Have a great weekend!!!

I'm linking up with my favorite Friday linkups

Fitness Friday, Five Things Friday,  Friday Five,  Friday Favorites 

D.

Scale Hiccup...

It has been maybe 2 or 3 months since I last got on the scale.

I am not a slave to the scale. 

I weighed in once a week and moved on with my day.

I’m usually a measurements person. I love watching the inches go bye-bye.

The scale is a mean bitch J

She varies from morning to night

She doesn't care about new hairdos and muscle mass.

She just gut punches you with a number.

Yesterday I went home, urinated and showered.

I stepped out the shower and the scale caught my eye.

I got on it.

0__o

 

According to the scale, between 5:30 and 6pm, I have gained 12lbs.

My heart dropped.

I have worked so hard TOO HARD

10 lbs!!!

I refuse to go back in the direction I came from.

I don’t want to be fat anymore.

Buckling this shit down.

I have to get back on point.

I used to log ALLLLLLL my food.

I had an exercise routine that I would not miss.

My mind was focused.

I wanted it more than anything I could ever dream of.  I still do.

I've gotten lazy.  It’s easier to lay in bed and sulk.

Oh I’ll just have one piece of carrot Cake.

12 lbs

Twelve pounds

Ugh

I just can’t have that.

D will be getting her shit together.

Linking up with The Grits Blog Little Friday link up!  

D.

This Summer 5 I Will...

Yes, yes, I know I have been M.I.A. this week. 

Why? Lol…let’s see

I didn’t have any writing inspiration.  I didn’t know what to say, how to say it and I didn’t want to post BS just for the sake of posting.

However, I am posting for the sake of posting, today.

Kinda…

I love link up’s. What I love about one of my Friday link up’s Friday Five @ Eat, Pray, Run is that it’s themed.  I don’t know if it has always been theme, no clue, perhaps I just never paid attention.  Today it’s themed and it gives me the opportunity to think and be inspired.

When it comes to the summer the only thing I get excited about it not having to drive my kids to school and shuttles, and then picking them up.  Its really a time where I kinda ignore them and they fend for themselves because they are a little older (teens) and with any luck their sperm donor will babysit for a week or two. Usually during that week or two I will just vegetate and not think.

I feel empowered this year.  I feel like being spontaneous and taking risks. I feel like adventure.

All of these feeling lead me to my

This Summer I Will…

The #1 thing I want to do this Summer is City Fit Girls.  I love these girls or this girl WHATEVER!! I love their movement.  I wish that we had a movement like this in Atlanta.  It’s inspirational, motivational and interactive.  The founder actually emails me BACK when I ask questions and when its kit time…LOVE IT!  They have classes on weekends Club Cardio and Bootcamps.  I want to go! I am going.  Philadelphia PA. I’m scared to travel alone and go to a strange city alone, but I’m determined. Aaaaaaand while I’m there I can knock one of my fitness bucket list item off, Run the Rocky Stairs!!!!!!

2^nd I want to go to Miami, South Beach, Miami.  I have been a few other times but I was with friends and it was kinda stressful.  I want to go and just enjoy the sand and the pizza, sunrises and sunsets.  Just enjoy the peace.  I’m not a big fan of sand but I want to sit in it and build a castle and people watch. *sigh* maybe even a few jumping jacks…lol

3^rd I want to walk those 5miles AROUND Stone Mountain.

I have walked up the mountain several times and when you are not that physically fit IT IS HARD!!!!!!! WHEW!! Walking around the mountain is long hot and hilly. I gotta do it!! At least once…lol

4^th I want to be able to run a mile all at the same time, no stopping, comfortably.  So by the end of the summer which is like um September something (HA!) I will be able to . Bet THAT!!

#5 I had to really think about.  I’m a geek.  I want to read 5 books this summer. Build my vocabulary and pull some of the books out of the Barnes & Nobles bags.  I love books, hate ebooks and I’m not afraid to say it!!!

Up next…

Execution.

Link up with my favorite Friday!

  Fitness Friday, Five Things Friday,  Friday Five,  Friday Favorites 

D.

Friday Rant...yup...

Perhaps my cycle is coming...I D K I don't keep track but I feel wack today.

one.

Unmotivated

Uninspired

Feeling lazy

Hate missing an exercise session

Mother is killing me with calories

Wanting it like the air I breathe

two.

Feeling like I need to erase all the things I have in my head, delete all the IG pages that post pics of models and start over.

I’m starting to make excuses for why I didn’t do this or that. Making excuses for why I can’t.

I need to regroup.

I’m starting to feel like a failure.  I have been at the same weight since December.

I have lost some inches and that’s great but I want the fat to go to.

However all is not lost.

I’m still in the game.

I haven’t gained the weight back

I haven’t given up and gone the easy route.

three.

I just want a routine that can stand the test of rain, hail, tornado warning, snow, holidays, brother visit, and vacation.

I need a foolproof routine that I have no choice but to do. 

And the OCD person in me needs the perfect calendar or wall hanging for it to go on.

four.

The lazy fat girl that’s still inside me just wants to eat burritos, brownies and bacon all day while washing it down with a bottle of Coca Cola. However I’m tired of being plus sized and eating Chipotle burritos EVERYDAY won’t help

 

five.

I loathe being weak.  I loathe other people seeing me being weak. 

BUT

That’s what my blog is for.  It I can’t be real what’s the point.

The journey is not easy. It’s not supposed to be.

In order for the results to matter it has to be difficult. It has to be hard.

The journey makes the results so much more worth it.

conclusion.

Writing this out has actually helped me to feel better, more hopeful.

Down with negative.

Going to spend the weekend WRITING out (on paper) my routine.  It will include strength training, alternate exercises and j.i.c rain routines.

I have clarity.

Linking up with  Fitness Friday, Five Things Friday,  Friday Five,  Friday Favorites 

D.

Hump Ya!...

You know how some people are obsessed with the scale...well I'm obsessed with blogs stats.  I like seeing that I have views and COMMENTS!!!!!!!

I love feedback...I makes me feel like someone out there cares about my struggle.

However, I noticed that struggle that no one really cared about. Accountability.

Couple weeks ago I post about accountability here. Got no feedback. No love. 

It sucked. * shrug *

Any who

I completed my #100in6 

I walked 102.18 / 100 miles and I was finished 2 days ahead of time!!!

It was awesome!!

Now I'm searching for the next challenge.  

My Swag Swap partner and I are talking about coming up with a challenge we can do together. 

Any suggestions?

I love challenges. Here's why. 

• They give me focus. 
• There is a schedule with deadlines.  
• There is a fully defined tasks that have an outcome. 
• There are also rewards. Not monetary (though I'm not against it).  The rewards of a good, fun challenge are points and recognition!!!!

Know of any fitness challenges I can get into?

Last night I did some strength training.  The beautiful Liz @ Fitness Blondie post a Weight Lifting 101 I thought it was great! It was also the push I needed to follow through on one of my goals this week.

It was an upper body circuit....I now understand what fatigue mean.  Its not painful or sore its just weak as hell...can hardly type kinda weak.  Good shit!

This week I wrote out my exercise plan...have I followed it ....no

It's the last full week of my class and I had a paper to write that I was soooooooooooooo behind on so I have spent my nights writing and deep breathing. 

I have NOT however, been snacking or eating CRAP...proud of myself.

I didn't meal prep this week because well I'm poor so I made a cute black bean and zucchini stir-fry that I have paired with turkey patties that my kiddies refuse to cook. * shrug * 

Ok so last week I was poking around FabChickGetsFit and she had a link to a clothing site she loves, ASOS.

I found this dress.  I don't buy dresses, but I was being positive AND it was a great price!

Can I say dam!!! I have KNEES!!!!!!!!! The material feels great on my body and hugs my booty just right.  LOVE it!

Ok Happy Hump Day you guys!

Hit up my favorite blog hop Hump Day Blog Hop with Liz @ Fitness Blondie and a new Link Up that I hitting up today Workout Wednesday with Diatta @ Femme Fitale Fit Club

Have an awesome day!

 

D.

My Lifestyle...

For the past 2 days I have been fasting.  I AM a spiritual, religious person and fasting, for me, is a way to get closer to God and be provided with clarity. Boom!

I was feeling like I had lost control and sight of my goals. I had been eating poorly and not giving my ALL to the exercises I do outside of walking.   I didn't want to continue a cycle of stating again EVERY single Monday or Tuesday or Saturday.  I needed to clear my mind, detox and find the strength that I know I have. 

I haven’t fasted in years and even when I made the decision to do it I was second guessing myself.  Then I remembered I used to fast all the time. I could go from 3 days to 7 depending on what I needed.  I knew I could do it, but I have been having so much self doubt that I was scared I wouldn't make it.  I originally planned to just go 24 hours then I woke up the next day feeling good about me so I decided to go another 24 hours.  I went 48 hours without failing.  

During he first 24 hours I wanted to eat the leftovers but I knew that will prove nothing. I was having the cravings and though I didn't give into temptation I wanted to feel stronger AGAINST them in that moment and future moment.

This morning I feel powerful! I feel like I can overcome and accomplish ANYTHING!!!

I overcame my cravings.

I pushed past the temptations.

I rediscovered the mental discipline that had been kidnapped by negativity and self doubt.

I love food…but it’s fuel

I have to discover ways to get the flavors I seek, but in healthier options.

I love Mexican food…Its to DIE for, but I can’t have those tortillas and chips and cheese (I stopped eating sour cream YEARS ago)

I love I talian…but I don’t want the pasta and creamy sauces.

I love cake and brownies and cookies ESPECIALLY when my daughter (the Sweets Boss )makes them… but I don’t wanna be fat as hell anymore and well one cookie is a dam meal,  so, um yeh no.

Discipline and Consistency are key

I have come up with a menu that I will eat every day, all day til I’m goal weight.

Breakfast – Egg Muffins filled with Spinach

Lunch – Turkey Muffin (will post recipe this weekend) w/ Broccoli

Dinner – Shrimp or Salmon w/ Spinach, Mushroom, Pepper mixture

Snacks – Almonds or cucumber slices (I don’t do well with lots of fruit or yogurt)

Sweet cravings – Water of a little The Bees Knees

I no longer use the term work out.  I hate work and the word work just makes me nauseous.

I have an EXERCISE routine that includes both Cardio AND Strength training

I’m working on a rewards system

And No cheat days maybe a cheat meal or snack but within a calorie range.

This is not a challenge. This is not a diet.

It’s a lifestyle.

I know that I am capable and that I have the discipline to be stronger than that coconut cream cake in the fridge…lol

I am so thankful and full of Gratitude that He loves me.

I am better than all the negative thoughts that have been counterproductive to my goal.

I’m free.

Happy hump day y’all!   Joining my favorite blog hop with Liz @Fitness Blondie!!!

D.

Mental Challenge...

I only walked a little over 3miles yesterday.
When I got home I swung the kettle bell for over 5mins. I may not seem like a lot but IT IS!

Today I feel like all those pics talking about leg day.
I literally had to slow motion squat to sit on the fricking toilet!!!
So was yesterday leg day? * shrug *

I don't know but it hurts so good.





I'm feeling pretty good today!
Lately I have been feeling like giving up and forgoing my goals and lifestyle change.
I can't do that.
I need to be stronger than my negative thoughts.

Soooooo, I came up with a small challenge for myself.

It will last from today, April 10, 2014 until May 10, 2014
A month is always a good time table for a challenge.  I like a month.

Things I'm Challenging Myself with.

o   No carbs

o   I eat bread for breakfast and rice or some other carb for lunch. Gotta stop doing that.  Bread bloats me. Es no bueno para my belly. :)

o   No Snacking

o   I have a desk job…blah I don’t sit and snack alllll day but I will have SEVERAL spoons of peanut butter or lots of cheezits, gotta kill that.

o   Only eat what I can log into MyFitnessPal

o   Keeping the meal plan simple. Protein and VEGGIES!!!

o   Plan cheat day

o   Often times cheat day will consist of CRAP! Not McDonald's french fries, but  burgers, chips and salsa, ice cream, bindging…CRAP! I need to decide what I’m going to have on my cheat day, write it down and STICK TO IT!!

 

Things I really need to work on to get closer to my ultimate goal!!!!

 

Happy Little Friday!

Doing a Little Friday Link Up with The Grits Blog!!

 

D.  

 

 

What a hump it is...

The weekend was not great as far as movement is concerned. I got my miles in on Friday, which is GREAT because I usually miss that good Friday workout. I got in 2.5 miles.
Then my brother and his babies came to town. The family was here to celebrate my son and my brother's birthdays!!!! YEAH!!!
The brother is my mom's favorite sooooo she cooks. 
Saturday she prepared a good ol' SOUL food dinner.  not southern... SOUL.
I ate the veggies because this gal does not like chicken...ew...not a chicken fan...I only eat it when I HAVE to...which is hardly EVER!!! Oh and I had a small piece of Chocolate Ganache cake. :)
anywho...
Saturday exercise...nah...well wait..nope no exercise.
Sunday Family went out to a Hibachi restaurant!! YEAH
Probably the worse thing about that meal was the Garlic Butter...the bad thing was the white rice.

Monday my baby turned 13!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am officially the parent if 2 teenagers!!! OMG!
It's painful.
A little depressing.
Sad.
I wanna cry.
BLAH!
WE had breakfast lunch and dinner and play tons of video games for tickets.
Good times!
No exercise...unless you count me walking around Dave & Busters for 3 hours bouncing from game to game :)

Yesterday I was back at it!! Hit the trail got in 5+ miles!!!
As always it was a great walk and I ran a little. It was nice.
I one day want to run 3.1 miles...HA!

Therapy Session:


She's crying cuz I'm fat.

I'm tired.  I'm disappointed in myself.  I have worked so hard and all i wanna do in give stop and not care anymore.  It's so much easier to eat a pizza and lay in bed than it is to be disappointed by the scale not moving and the measuring tape being the same.  I am not in a plateau.  I am in that " You can't work out a bad diet" place... I not eating good. 

I'm pretty, but No wann be here

Don't wanna be here again.

Last week I had waaaaay too much bread and rationalized it by saying "oh well your eating it before 2".  Bread bloats me and i know thins and I stillllllllll had a sammich everyday last week.
I even had my meal prepped lunches and still went out and spent MONEY!!!!!
I feel like I have lost control and no slogan or motivational pic is going to help me with that.
The break throu kinda happened today or laaaaaate last night.
I started as 273 POUNDS!! That's almost 300lbs.
I can stand be almost 200 but not 300.
I don't want to go back there. I will not go back there.
I was miserable.  Physically incapable and OBESE!!!!
I refuse to go back to that.
I refuse to not have these great climaxes...lol
Must keep going...
Must keep fighting myself to save myself.



I need an accountability partner and a challenge that is interesting. Yup!

Linking up with my favorite, Liz @ Fitness Blondie, Hump Day Blog Hop!!! ( I need a pic for this)


D.