Sep 16, 2008

Stripper Body

"We are defined by the choices we make" ~Tyler Durden

Today's Truth:
1. Having a buddy — or a team of supporters — can help you to stick to it when the going gets tough. (YES MA'AM!!)

On favorite weight loss site... one of my teams has quarterly challenges that last anywhere from 8 weeks to 12 weeks. The current challenge is following The Biggest Loser on NBC, which has its season premiere this show... The one big team is broken up in to small team s with captains co captain exercise challenges, motivations and support. NO one is voted off but the winners are given much I am on the first day of a challenge ready to get rid of more pounds, deep in thought.
I have had the motivation, I have found different kinds, types, and levels of inspiration. My one trouble has been BELIEVING that I could be under 200 pounds or that I could ACTUALLY be smaller! It's a different thought process and belief system going on here. I KNOW I can do it. I know my goal is not impossible but I can say, "I want to know what thin feels like", all day long but to actually let the realization enter my head that I can AND will be this....WOW. For this challenge, that just started today I was thinking about my "goal weight" and it was really weird typing, thinking and even writing the number. It was a number that I don't EVER remember seeing.
I am not a skinny girl gone big. I am a girl that has gone from chunky to fat since I was 8years old. When I was 12 I was a 12, 14 I was a 14, 16 is was a 16, 18 was an 18 and once I turn 20 I fluctuated between a 20 and 18, til now. It has ALWAYS been a fact of life for me... Wow... When I first started I was like "Hmm I want to be a size 14" I AM ALMOST THERE!!! I AM ONE SIZE AWAY!!! really have to change my way of thinking. I really have to get my perception of this lifestyle change TOGETHER!! I need to stop by Body Tap on Tuesdays and take some surveys. I need to know what size some them are...LOL...

Sep 11, 2008

Forget Finding Nemo...

Never Give In. Never, Never, Never. ~ Winston Churchill

I have been having a hard time finding inspiration. I'm not sure if that's the right word, but it's the one I'm going with. I feel like since the 4th of July I have been going down a spiral path of nothingness. I kinda feel a little lost. For some reason I am finding it more and more difficult to keep the weightloss momentum going. My biggest set back has been food. I have been eating like crazy!!! Wait let me retract that. I have still been eating 3 square meals and watching my portions. My portions have been growing (I've been watching them so that's how I know) and that's part of the issue. The other part of the food issue is bread. Bread is THE DEVIL!!!!! Bread comes in many shapes and forms sandwich slices, rolls, and those heavenly, not to mention free, baskets of bread that are delivered straight to your table.
I, however, have been KILLING Pizza and tortilla chips. Not killing pizza, like eating a box at a no no ....just eating pizza PERIOD!!! Pizza is loaded with carbs and I have probably had pizza for lunch or dinner twice a week for the past 2-3 weeks...and for me...THAT IS A LOT!!!!! Tortilla chips...whew!! Let's see salsa is ok, but to have salsa and chip, guacamole and chip, spinach dip and chips...I could just DIE!!!!
I have to stop this madness. I can not go back to where I started. I can not just give up on my goal. I want some... Apple Bottom jeans, boots with tha seriously under NO circumstances do I want to give up on this goal... My lifestyle change includes weightloss. Weightloss includes changing unhealthy habits into healthy ones. Healthy habits include COMMITMENT.
I have to be committed...after all its my HEART we talking about.

Sep 10, 2008


Today's Truths:

1. Sweat, sweat, sweat... (lol)
2. Alcohol is not our friend. (well, not all the time)

Last Friday, I got totally wasted. I'm gonna a just put it out there, like that. TOTALLY, sleep on the ground, throwing up, fussing and cussing, WASTED!!!!!!! Disclaimer: I have NEVER been that drunk ever! It almost ruined my relationship...LOL...but it didn't.
I said all that to say, Saturday, didn't quite make those 5 miles, but I was able to get a Fill-in and Pedicure, watch the Season Premier of Gossip Girl, that I had missed, and have a fat juicy hamburger from 5Guys Burgers and Fries...moving on...Sunday, I wasn't able to make those 5 miles, but I also can't really, quite remember what I did do on Sunday...hmm...anywho, Monday, I couldn't even get out of the bed to lift a weight, Tuesday, I was BACK TO THE PROGRAM!!!! However, I still feel like crap. I got up Tuesday morning to workout and it felt like it was the 1st time I had EVER did a jumping jack.
So, I have to put the Vodka...sniff...the Tequila shots... the Mojitos...and the Sex on the Beaches ...sniff sniff...away. I can't drink and maintain my workout regimen and reach my weight loss goals. Sorry party people.

On a lighter note, last week I was able to change my workouts to AM workouts. Fact: Exercising first thing in the morning is the most foolproof way to ensure that other things don't overtake you fitness commitment (its easy to wimp out in the evening, when you're tired or faced with cooking dinner or helping with homework). So, I'm back to working out in the morning. It's difficult, especially if I go to bed after 10pm, but it feels so good during the day. I eat less and I don't get as stressed. So, try it. I know it's not for everyone but give it a shot.

This morning, an AM workout was not the haps. I am STILL tired as all hell. I WANTED TO GO TO BOOTCAMP this Saturday!!!!! The Bootcamp I go to on Saturdays is no joke. My sister went 1 time and could not walk for days after she won't go again until she has exercised, CONSISTENTLY weeks...WTF!! You know it's the, however, love it. I have been several times and was planning on going back this week, after a 2 month vacation, but the ALCOHOL jacked me up!!! The results that I was seeing were phenomenal! Arms toning, booty firming, thighs tightening ....Sexual

My goal for next Saturday: BOOTCAMP!!

Steps to achieve:
1. Continue building the consistency of exercising in the AM
3. Leave the Alcohol alone.
4. Blog

Aug 27, 2008

Being Accountable...

Today's truth:

1. "Captain D's is just like Red Lobster, except only 1/2 the price." (I didn't say

It has been extremely hard to dedicate time to this project of blogging...I get busy! I reevaluated a few things and decided that it is worth it to be able to share my experience, in case someone comes across this and finds some type of inspiration...I hope.

Confession/Accountability Time...

I went on vacation about a month ago to the beautiful Destin, Florida. The white sands and the gorgeous ocean was breathtaking. Came home to humid Hotlanta and since then have not been able to get back right.

My workout regimen is/was as follows:

Sat AM walk 5mile 1hr 15 mins sometimes an hour long Bootcamp (shameless

Sun AM 5 mile walk 1 hr 15mins

Mon, Wed Strength training routine brought to you by the Biggest Loser (8lb weights) and 30-45 mins of Cardio

Tues, Thurs 30-45 mins of cardio

On Friday I rest, whew!

Since vacation, this is what it been looking like:

Sat noonish 2mile walk
Sun rest
Mon rest
Tues rest
Wed 20 mins Cardio
Thurs rest
Fri rest


Over the last week and a half I have been slowly getting back into my program, but it has been a serious bitch doing it. I tell you, laziness is an airborne disease. My boo say let's watch a movie, I've been like "ok, I'll work out in the morning", morning comes, alarm gives that annoying buzz, hit snooze "I workout when I get home", get home and then my babies want dinner and attention. Control, gotta get back that control that I left on them dam beaches last month.

This week I have been on it:

Mon 20min Strength training 10-15 min BRISK cardio
Tues 56 min Cardio (4 mile INTENSE walk)
Wed 20 min strength training and 30 min BootCamp

I have really had to force myself to get right. In case your wondering I have only gained back 3lbs. I think that's pretty good considering how little I have been exercising.

My short term goals for 8/25-9/13

1. Weigh under loose 5lbs!!!

2. Get back on regularly scheduled programming

Aug 22, 2008

The Motivation

"Do or Don't Do there is no try." ~ Yoda

That has been my motto for the past 7 months. These are not the arrogant ramblings of a sex crazed or sex deprived plus sized Monique fan, these are the ramblings of a Young, Black woman through the journey of losing I'VE NEVER BEEN SKINNY!!!!!

Today's truths:
1. Nothing tastes as good as thin feels ( how the hell would I know)
2. Overweight people have low self esteem (SIKE!!!)

Seriously, who comes up with this stuff!!

I guess by my Dr.'s standards, I am, overweight. However, on the side of town where I'm from, Decatur, Ga by way of Atlanta, I am what you call "Thick". So, when I decided to change my life and go for a healthier one...needless to say, it was hard to find the "motivation" or "inspiration". I have been a big girl all my life, I have had many nicknames from Miss Piggy, in the 2nd grade, to Fat Yellow Banana in the 8th-12th grade. I don't have low self esteem and I am confident in myself, maybe not my abilities but in who I am. I have ALWAYS had someone or someones to call my own and been married and divorced. I never really thought of my self as fat, overweight, obese, gross or disgusting. Just me, cute , thick with a big but and a smile...poison...(BellBivDevoe, now ya know).

2008 came and I decided that I wanted to loose weight. Got videos, got books, got the internet, don't got a reason, the motivation, the glue to make a typical New Years resolution stick. Sooooo, sitting in the bed with a Twix and a glass of Vodka watching Biggest Loser Couples and surfing the net, I go to one of the BL sponsers, (shameless plug, pay me). They have a 6-week weightloss challenge starting, so I joined in. It was interesting and very informative. I read articles, made friends and actually became interested in taking this weightloss thing SERIOUSLY!! One of the chicks I met on there talked about another weightloss site that she used, called (wait for it, wait for it) and unlike a lot of other weightloss sites its FREE!!! I took a little tour of the site and all that it had to offer and felt like it was home. I joined.

Spark has different tasks to complete to get you comfortable with the site and understanding your journey. One of them is a "Motivation" collage (for the special at heart: Picture). "What's my motivation?" IDK!! All the things, that I listed above, flooded my head as I searched for a reason, until finally, after a few days, I came up with two. The first I can't and won't talk about, it's sexual and Queen Latifah and might get me into some trouble with my partner (so, shh). The second reason was plain and simple. I want to know what Skinny bithches feel like!! I want to know what its like to have a stripper body not just in my lap or on my arm, but as a part of my everyday body chemistry.

So this is my motivation, to know what it's like to be smaller. To have a banging body and shop in stores that don't have a Super Plus section or charge an extra $2 for an extra X. So far I have lost 35lbs!!!! I am going to loose 65-70 more lbs!! This should be fun.