A Humpday Farewell...

As I have mentioned in previous posts, I subscribe to City Fit Girls Fit Kit.  Love my Kits! They are inspirational, motivational and PACKED with lots goodies!!

Unfortunately and sadly I received an email from the City Fit Girls.

“Thank you for supporting City Fit Girls, LLC. by subscribing to the City Fit Kit! We hope that the City Fit Kit has motivated you more than ever along your fitness and wellness journey. Since starting in January, we have created partnerships with local and national brands and helped assist our subscribers on their weight loss and fitness journey."

"This is not easy to do or write but after July, we are no longer be providing the City Fit Kit subscription service. We have thought long and hard about this and know that this is best. City Fit Girls, LLC. is expanding in other areas and will need to focus more in those areas.”

So, July is the last kit. I am sad to see it end, but I’m excited to get my kit!!

 As always there is a lovely calender FULL of activities to do.  To be honest I have done nothing. YET!!! my goal is to do a few days but I can't commit...Stress free, no obligation zone. HA!

This kit is much like the others packed with yummy things to try and a push to get you out the door!








This one day at a time is great.(here)   I feel like I can handle things better. Did a great exercise routine yesterday.
I started with the treadmill.  The routine consisted of 15 min of climbing up hill. WHEW! It was a good sweaty 15mins.  I burned 151 calories!
A little later (after careful consideration) I did T25 Cardio.  Let me say that today, right now. I can hardly stand up straight.   My legs. My legs.  I burned 307 calories! I also started checking off my daily goals list.

• Feel accomplished
• Proud of myself
• Stress was alleviated
• I SLEPT GREAT!!!!

Very much loving my one day at at time!

Join the fun today Wow Wednesday & The Little Things Link Up!

D.

Hump Day Confessions!!

My confessions

Every time I read @ Kay Times I kinda get motivated to write.  She is so quirky and funny I have to write something for her to read, laugh smile at and comment on.

1.  My 20 year high school reunion was a couple Fridays ago.  The “organizers” have a group on Facebook that I reluctantly joined.  I scrolled through looking around and realized that I have NO IDEA WHO ANY OF THOSE PEOPLE ARE!!!  The one person from High School that I do still communicate with is the ONLY reason I went.  I thought it was going to suuuuuckk.  It was straight! I had a good time and people remembered me!!!!

2. I am over fitness.  I feel bad about it.  I am however working very hard to find the motivation I need to keep pushing buuuuut I want cheesecake…lol…kidding. My body is just telling me to chill so I’m chilling.

3. I want to be a housewife AGAIN!!!!! Thank you God for this job and the ability to go to work every day and have a job to go to, BUT Man I just want a mate to take care of me!!!  I will cook clean and rub the feet I just don’t want to HAVE to go to work every day! CAN I HIT THE LOTTERY PLEASE!!

4. I did not have a good 4^th of July Holiday.  I enjoyed the company of my children but we did not get invited to attend any BBQ’s and we missed all the fricking fireworks shows…ugh  IT SUCKED!!!!

5.  I’m addicted to The Good Wife.  Let me tell you something.  This show is absolutely brilliant.  I can’t begin to tell you how wonderful the writing is on this show.  I have watched 4 season in 1 month, seriously.  I love it absolutely love it

6.  Ok and my last confession of the day and please no judgment. But you know that movie The Purge   I would love to subject my kids father to that. And that’s all I have to day about that…

Not my first confession post but my first confession Link up with Vodka and Soda!

Good night folks!!

D.

First cup of coffee...Here's the T!

If we were having coffee this morning I would tell you that Deciding that you want to lose weight is a hard decision to make and actually beginning the process is even harder.

When I’m in I’m in.  However, over the past couple months my discipline and love for the “journey” has wavered.  I haven’t been able to self-motivate. I haven’t felt like doing much of anything.  I haven’t given up. I still meal prep and think about my food choices but I’m over the work of weight loss.

I would tell you that A fitness article came to my inbox from about.com.  I don’t know who sent it or where it went when I finished.  I don’t subscribe to anything from them.  Perhaps it was just meant for me to have. * shrug *

I would tell you It discussed “What’s really important?” as opposed to  “What do I think should be important?”

Is weight loss important or do I think it should be important. If I lean more toward the “should”, then I should give up.   Harsh, right?,  but not really. 

I have never been skinny and I don’t have self esteem issues related to weight. I feel like I “should” lose weight to be healthier and live longer.  Apparently l have been approaching this journey WRONG!

The goal to loose weight isn't enough to get me moving. So, I’m giving up on weight loss being the end result.  I’m making my goals a little more obtainable. I’m going to focus on what I get out of exercising.  As opposed to having my normal goals of

Loose 5lbs by (some date)

Burn 2000 calories a week

I would tell you I’m stepping a little deeper into my daily. I’m going to focus on the right now.

My new goals will be more relate to how I live daily, things that matter to me right NOW.

I’m going to approach exercise with a different frame of mind.

I enjoy exercising.   I love how I feel when I’m doing it and after I do it.

“How does exercise improve my life right now?”

That’s what my new goals will cater to…the right now.

Things that I can achieve right now may help me to enjoy the journey more and stay on track because just weight loss is not enough for me. (I’m sexy…lol)

I would tell  you that I’m taking weight loss off the table. I need smaller goals that will make me help me come back day after day.  Things I can see IMMEDIATELY!  So I came up with some new goals to get through the day.

New DAILY Goals

1. Have more energy. I can definitely tell that I haven’t done ish in 2 weeks.  I’m  lethargic as hell.  It’s work to drive the car.  I feel over it everyday!

2. Reduce stress.

3. Feel strong/powerful ( I love how I feel after exercise because I DID IT!!!)

4. Sleep Better

5. Better Orgasm.  (Important towards the moooood HA! It’s just another form of cardio but the O is so much better when I exercise regularly. WHEW!)

6. Tell my friends about it (Y-O-U) Still remaining accountable but also doing what I love (write).

To achieve these goals I’m going to do nothing different.  Make good food choices and exercise.  I’m no longer focusing on the weight loss because if all goes well and right, that will come anyway.

I won’t feel like a failure at the end of the week when I didn't meet my goals and the scale and measurements are the same.

I think with these small daily victories my confidence won’t be killed and I will be more successful!

The focus will truly be a HEALTHY lifestyle as opposed to just losing weight.

Not going to be worried about the scale.

One choice at a time one day at a time

REALLY focusing on the journey, not the destination. YA DIG!

Join me and Jill Conyers at the Ultimate Coffee Date!

What would you tell me at our coffee date?

D.

Friday Before Official Summer...

IT'S FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!

After Scalegate last week, (here) I took the weekend and thought long and hard about my goals, myself and the point of it all.
I got my head in order.  Mental discipline is hard.  I often talk myself out of and into  A LOT of bullshit.  Unhealthy bullshit.

I decided (again) that I want this. That I'm better than sadness i feel and the excuses I make. When in reality and it's scientifically proven, that exercise makes you feel better, emotionally as well as physically.
I like exercising, but I have let personal stuff give me excuse to feel sorry for myself and not do what I know I should be doing. (figured all that out over the weekend...HA!)

This week I hit the ground rolling.
I didn't let excuses get in my way AND I even had a partner this week!

I wrote out the menu, we grocery shopped and prepped what need to be prepped.
Its been a pretty awesome week!

Below is a sample of the menu this week.  I was toooooo tired and lazy to type everyday on the QWERTY.

I burned a fair amount of calories this week and it's not over yet!

Took it to the street and a breakfast #MealPrep

Elliptical and Strength Training

Sat in Atlanta traffic AND heat for 2 hours...I did a nice HIIT,
 lots of Jumping Jacks and Squats!

2 Mile Walk!

Have a great weekend!!!

I'm linking up with my favorite Friday linkups

Fitness Friday, Five Things Friday,  Friday Five,  Friday Favorites 

D.

Scale Hiccup...

It has been maybe 2 or 3 months since I last got on the scale.

I am not a slave to the scale. 

I weighed in once a week and moved on with my day.

I’m usually a measurements person. I love watching the inches go bye-bye.

The scale is a mean bitch J

She varies from morning to night

She doesn't care about new hairdos and muscle mass.

She just gut punches you with a number.

Yesterday I went home, urinated and showered.

I stepped out the shower and the scale caught my eye.

I got on it.

0__o

 

According to the scale, between 5:30 and 6pm, I have gained 12lbs.

My heart dropped.

I have worked so hard TOO HARD

10 lbs!!!

I refuse to go back in the direction I came from.

I don’t want to be fat anymore.

Buckling this shit down.

I have to get back on point.

I used to log ALLLLLLL my food.

I had an exercise routine that I would not miss.

My mind was focused.

I wanted it more than anything I could ever dream of.  I still do.

I've gotten lazy.  It’s easier to lay in bed and sulk.

Oh I’ll just have one piece of carrot Cake.

12 lbs

Twelve pounds

Ugh

I just can’t have that.

D will be getting her shit together.

Linking up with The Grits Blog Little Friday link up!  

D.

Is It Day 3 or Day 4 of the Week?...

Happy Wed-Nes-Day READERS!!!!

It has been a wonderful week of laziness and quiet.

Haven’t done much fitness this week and well I care and don’t care.

My heart is still in the journey as well as my mind, which is why I have not had Chipotle, cheese and Coca-Cola every day.

I have still been logging my food and not binging.  I have gone over my calories some days but I have not gone back to high carbs, like my previous life.

I gets in a gallon of water every day and I raise my heart rate for at least 5mins…lol

Moving Forward

I love me some Kay over there @ The Kay Times and she is always telling her business on Wed-Nes-Day.  She really lets you know who she is and where her mind is.  (She doesn’t like Micheal Jackson – btw…humph) I love her anyway…HA!

So I have a few confessions to share.

In the winter I sleep with a fan on.  I close the vents. I crack the window and I sleep like a baby.  I do not like being hot while I’m in the bed unless something sexual is happening and even then I need a breeze. However, I only like being cold IN my bed. Not at work and not outside. J

I don’t like kids. I don’t think they are cute.  I don’t ooo and aahhh when I see them.  I don’t care about pictures of babies or pink clothes, booties, hats. Nope none of that nah! I don’t care about recitals or ballet.  Kids are annoying. Babies cry and poop. I only like my kids.  I raised my kids.  Please don’t show me pics of your kids, or roll up on me with your kid or tell me long stories about something they did.  D don’t care. 

I believe in Cinderella fairytale love. It’s sad but true.  I believe that I will have my forever love one day.  Though I’m waaaaaaaay to old and live in the real world.  I just believe that the right one for ME is just waiting for me to get all healed up and right before God let’s them make an appearance. Boom!

Before I decided to change my lifestyle to live a healthier fit life I was a CocaColahollic.  I would keep cans and 20oz bottles of Coke in my room.  I would drink 8-12 bottles/cans a day EVERYDAY! I loved Coke!  It was harder to give up than bread. I IMMEDIATELY lost 5 pounds when I stop drinking.  Man I loved me some Coke. Passionately.

I finally got my friend to agree to take me to her favorite Zumba class…let’s see if it actually happens. 

She keeps pissing me off.  She did a 5K last weekend and only mentioned yesterday or the day before because her legs hurt. She sucks. I ask her constantly to do 5K’s with me…UGH

She is a work in progress.

Anywho that’s all I got…

Have a wonderful evening!

I have a little heart rate raiser planned for this evening. Yay!

Wed-Nes-Day workout:  Going for either a nice long walk or doing my new SWEAT workout that I bought last week and haven’t downloaded yet. Looking forward to it!

Link up with my HumpDay favs  @Hump Day BlogHop and @ Workout Wednesday!

D.

This Summer 5 I Will...

Yes, yes, I know I have been M.I.A. this week. 

Why? Lol…let’s see

I didn’t have any writing inspiration.  I didn’t know what to say, how to say it and I didn’t want to post BS just for the sake of posting.

However, I am posting for the sake of posting, today.

Kinda…

I love link up’s. What I love about one of my Friday link up’s Friday Five @ Eat, Pray, Run is that it’s themed.  I don’t know if it has always been theme, no clue, perhaps I just never paid attention.  Today it’s themed and it gives me the opportunity to think and be inspired.

When it comes to the summer the only thing I get excited about it not having to drive my kids to school and shuttles, and then picking them up.  Its really a time where I kinda ignore them and they fend for themselves because they are a little older (teens) and with any luck their sperm donor will babysit for a week or two. Usually during that week or two I will just vegetate and not think.

I feel empowered this year.  I feel like being spontaneous and taking risks. I feel like adventure.

All of these feeling lead me to my

This Summer I Will…

The #1 thing I want to do this Summer is City Fit Girls.  I love these girls or this girl WHATEVER!! I love their movement.  I wish that we had a movement like this in Atlanta.  It’s inspirational, motivational and interactive.  The founder actually emails me BACK when I ask questions and when its kit time…LOVE IT!  They have classes on weekends Club Cardio and Bootcamps.  I want to go! I am going.  Philadelphia PA. I’m scared to travel alone and go to a strange city alone, but I’m determined. Aaaaaaand while I’m there I can knock one of my fitness bucket list item off, Run the Rocky Stairs!!!!!!

2^nd I want to go to Miami, South Beach, Miami.  I have been a few other times but I was with friends and it was kinda stressful.  I want to go and just enjoy the sand and the pizza, sunrises and sunsets.  Just enjoy the peace.  I’m not a big fan of sand but I want to sit in it and build a castle and people watch. *sigh* maybe even a few jumping jacks…lol

3^rd I want to walk those 5miles AROUND Stone Mountain.

I have walked up the mountain several times and when you are not that physically fit IT IS HARD!!!!!!! WHEW!! Walking around the mountain is long hot and hilly. I gotta do it!! At least once…lol

4^th I want to be able to run a mile all at the same time, no stopping, comfortably.  So by the end of the summer which is like um September something (HA!) I will be able to . Bet THAT!!

#5 I had to really think about.  I’m a geek.  I want to read 5 books this summer. Build my vocabulary and pull some of the books out of the Barnes & Nobles bags.  I love books, hate ebooks and I’m not afraid to say it!!!

Up next…

Execution.

Link up with my favorite Friday!

  Fitness Friday, Five Things Friday,  Friday Five,  Friday Favorites 

D.