Being Accountable...

Today's truth:

1. "Captain D's is just like Red Lobster, except only 1/2 the price." (I didn't say it...lol)

It has been extremely hard to dedicate time to this project of blogging...I get busy! I reevaluated a few things and decided that it is worth it to be able to share my experience, in case someone comes across this and finds some type of inspiration...I hope.

Confession/Accountability Time...

I went on vacation about a month ago to the beautiful Destin, Florida. The white sands and the gorgeous ocean was breathtaking. Came home to humid Hotlanta and since then have not been able to get back right.

My workout regimen is/was as follows:

Sat AM walk 5mile 1hr 15 mins sometimes an hour long Bootcamp (shameless plug...getinshapebootcamp.com)

Sun AM 5 mile walk 1 hr 15mins

Mon, Wed Strength training routine brought to you by the Biggest Loser (8lb weights) and 30-45 mins of Cardio

Tues, Thurs 30-45 mins of cardio

On Friday I rest, whew!

Since vacation, this is what it been looking like:

Sat noonish 2mile walk
Sun rest
Mon rest
Tues rest
Wed 20 mins Cardio
Thurs rest
Fri rest

WTF!!!!!

Over the last week and a half I have been slowly getting back into my program, but it has been a serious bitch doing it. I tell you, laziness is an airborne disease. My boo say let's watch a movie, I've been like "ok, I'll work out in the morning", morning comes, alarm gives that annoying buzz, hit snooze "I workout when I get home", get home and then my babies want dinner and attention. Control, gotta get back that control that I left on them dam beaches last month.

This week I have been on it:

Mon 20min Strength training 10-15 min BRISK cardio
Tues 56 min Cardio (4 mile INTENSE walk)
Wed 20 min strength training and 30 min BootCamp


I have really had to force myself to get right. In case your wondering I have only gained back 3lbs. I think that's pretty good considering how little I have been exercising.

My short term goals for 8/25-9/13

1. Weigh under loose 5lbs!!!

2. Get back on regularly scheduled programming

The Motivation

"Do or Don't Do there is no try." ~ Yoda

That has been my motto for the past 7 months. These are not the arrogant ramblings of a sex crazed or sex deprived plus sized Monique fan, these are the ramblings of a Young, Black woman through the journey of losing weight...lol... I'VE NEVER BEEN SKINNY!!!!!

Today's truths:
1. Nothing tastes as good as thin feels ( how the hell would I know)
2. Overweight people have low self esteem (SIKE!!!)

Seriously, who comes up with this stuff!!

I guess by my Dr.'s standards, I am, overweight. However, on the side of town where I'm from, Decatur, Ga by way of Atlanta, I am what you call "Thick". So, when I decided to change my life and go for a healthier one...needless to say, it was hard to find the "motivation" or "inspiration". I have been a big girl all my life, I have had many nicknames from Miss Piggy, in the 2nd grade, to Fat Yellow Banana in the 8th-12th grade. I don't have low self esteem and I am confident in myself, maybe not my abilities but in who I am. I have ALWAYS had someone or someones to call my own and been married and divorced. I never really thought of my self as fat, overweight, obese, gross or disgusting. Just me, cute , thick with a big but and a smile...poison...(BellBivDevoe, now ya know).

2008 came and I decided that I wanted to loose weight. Got videos, got books, got the internet, don't got a reason, the motivation, the glue to make a typical New Years resolution stick. Sooooo, sitting in the bed with a Twix and a glass of Vodka watching Biggest Loser Couples and surfing the net, I go to one of the BL sponsers, iVillage.com (shameless plug, pay me). They have a 6-week weightloss challenge starting, so I joined in. It was interesting and very informative. I read articles, made friends and actually became interested in taking this weightloss thing SERIOUSLY!! One of the chicks I met on there talked about another weightloss site that she used, called (wait for it, wait for it) Sparkpeople.com and unlike a lot of other weightloss sites its FREE!!! I took a little tour of the site and all that it had to offer and felt like it was home. I joined.

Spark has different tasks to complete to get you comfortable with the site and understanding your journey. One of them is a "Motivation" collage (for the special at heart: Picture). "What's my motivation?" IDK!! All the things, that I listed above, flooded my head as I searched for a reason, until finally, after a few days, I came up with two. The first I can't and won't talk about, it's sexual and Queen Latifah and might get me into some trouble with my partner (so, shh). The second reason was plain and simple. I want to know what Skinny bithches feel like!! I want to know what its like to have a stripper body not just in my lap or on my arm, but as a part of my everyday body chemistry.

So this is my motivation, to know what it's like to be smaller. To have a banging body and shop in stores that don't have a Super Plus section or charge an extra $2 for an extra X. So far I have lost 35lbs!!!! I am going to loose 65-70 more lbs!! This should be fun.