All Call...

The weather is killing my vibe this week and it's only Tuesday.
I want to nothing and I want to sleep.
I have done nothing however I have not slept.
BOO!

I had a friend who is on a fitness journey.
No she isn't dead, we just aren't a that cool any longer.
Last week and over the weekend I have been thinking a lot about having an accountability partner.

Accountability Partner Checklist:
Check and making sure I am following my goals
Cheer me on
Challenge me
and if local workout together a couple times a month together.

I, of course will be that and whatever else my accountability partner needs
So...
I went over my list of associates (very, very short)
I have one associate she's local, on her journey and cool (or so I thought)
We reconnected last year and at that point she was down 70 lbs give or take.
Sh was going to the gym, meal prepping and really had a handle on her journey and her goals.

I asked her one day if I could attend this Zumba  class with her that she raved about.
I didn't pay attention at first.
She was putting me off, ignoring my request.

It took me 9 months to realize that her journey was HER journey. (no that's not why we aren't cool) HA!
She was her own accountability partner and had no time or energy to help me.
Fine.
It made me a little angry at first, but that's her journey.  Everyone does not have the same needs. * shrug *

I still need an accountability partner.
How does one go about finding that PERSON?

I am at a point where I need a phone call, a singing email , a card in the mail something that tells me,

 GO TO WORK BITCH! 

Do you have an accountability partner?

How did you find them?

Are they helpful?

Little Friday Link up!!

D.

Friday Snitches!!!!!!...

IT'S FRIDAY!!!!!!!


It has been a good week.
It has been a productive week.  I has been a busy week. It has been a fast week. Most importantly its the END OF THE WORK WEEK!!!!! YEAT!

Emotionally it has been an down and up.
I have wanted to give in and give up.
I have wanted to stop.
I have limited myself with my negative ass thoughts.

by HUMP DAAAAAY I had a new attitude!
I remembered how much I wanted to be fit.
How I was tired of being F-A-T!
How how I want to show off my toned legs in short shorts and mini skirts!!!

So I'm in a really good place and I'm radiating positive energy!

The Top 5 things that I'm happy about this week:

1. My Son's 13th Birthday

• I love birthdays but I love my kiddies birthdays EVEN more! I can't believe he is no longer a little fat cuddle bear. I love him so much!

Yum.

1. The Game of Thrones

• WINTER IS HERE!!!! I'm so happy about! Especially since The Walking Dead had its season finale.  After the Red Wedding I need some John Snow in my life. Thank you HBO!!

2. The Mindy Project

• Oh My GOSH this show is yell out loud, roll on the floor, sore abs FUNNY!!! I started watching it Tuesday and I'm almost done with Season 2.  If your have not watched 1 episode you are MISSING OUT!!!

3. GIF's

• I just discovered GIF's!!!!! I get on the Internet to google INFORMATION and watch Netflix! I don't Facebook I don't play games..I had NO IDEA how all those little funny videos happened. NOW I know where to find them!! YEAH!!!!

4. My sore ass

• I love when I'm sore.  That means I worked. Boom!

5. Walking OUTSIDE!!!

• I love walking outside. I don't like bugs, I don't like being hot and I ain't a fan of camping but I WILL walk through the fricking woods!!!!! I love it!!!! I will be outside in the 100degree Atlanta weather drenched in sticky, sweet SWEAT (don't judge), walking. Seriously, for me there is nothing like fresh air and scenery when doing a good walk!

I will probably be finished with The Mindy Project today * tear * and my weekend looks pretty good.
The Dogwood Festival is this weekend, I plan on attending that.
Walking on my most FAVORITE trail @ Lucky Shoals park. Its a great trail full of inclines and curves (like me) HA!
Sunday is washing and straightening hair day. My kiddies have been on Spring Break this week and my daughter, with all her thick, natural hair, uses this time to do absolutely NOTHING to her hair.
Didn't meal prep this week but I did have planned meals prepared by someone else...BOOM!!

Also this week I find out who my SWAG SWAP friend is!!! VERY excited about that!
Today is also my FAVORITE Link up day! Follow Through Friday and Fitness Friday

Have a great weekend!

D.

Mental Challenge...

I only walked a little over 3miles yesterday.
When I got home I swung the kettle bell for over 5mins. I may not seem like a lot but IT IS!

Today I feel like all those pics talking about leg day.
I literally had to slow motion squat to sit on the fricking toilet!!!
So was yesterday leg day? * shrug *

I don't know but it hurts so good.





I'm feeling pretty good today!
Lately I have been feeling like giving up and forgoing my goals and lifestyle change.
I can't do that.
I need to be stronger than my negative thoughts.

Soooooo, I came up with a small challenge for myself.

It will last from today, April 10, 2014 until May 10, 2014
A month is always a good time table for a challenge.  I like a month.

Things I'm Challenging Myself with.

o   No carbs

o   I eat bread for breakfast and rice or some other carb for lunch. Gotta stop doing that.  Bread bloats me. Es no bueno para my belly. :)

o   No Snacking

o   I have a desk job…blah I don’t sit and snack alllll day but I will have SEVERAL spoons of peanut butter or lots of cheezits, gotta kill that.

o   Only eat what I can log into MyFitnessPal

o   Keeping the meal plan simple. Protein and VEGGIES!!!

o   Plan cheat day

o   Often times cheat day will consist of CRAP! Not McDonald's french fries, but  burgers, chips and salsa, ice cream, bindging…CRAP! I need to decide what I’m going to have on my cheat day, write it down and STICK TO IT!!

 

Things I really need to work on to get closer to my ultimate goal!!!!

 

Happy Little Friday!

Doing a Little Friday Link Up with The Grits Blog!!

 

D.  

 

 

What a hump it is...

The weekend was not great as far as movement is concerned. I got my miles in on Friday, which is GREAT because I usually miss that good Friday workout. I got in 2.5 miles.
Then my brother and his babies came to town. The family was here to celebrate my son and my brother's birthdays!!!! YEAH!!!
The brother is my mom's favorite sooooo she cooks. 
Saturday she prepared a good ol' SOUL food dinner.  not southern... SOUL.
I ate the veggies because this gal does not like chicken...ew...not a chicken fan...I only eat it when I HAVE to...which is hardly EVER!!! Oh and I had a small piece of Chocolate Ganache cake. :)
anywho...
Saturday exercise...nah...well wait..nope no exercise.
Sunday Family went out to a Hibachi restaurant!! YEAH
Probably the worse thing about that meal was the Garlic Butter...the bad thing was the white rice.

Monday my baby turned 13!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am officially the parent if 2 teenagers!!! OMG!
It's painful.
A little depressing.
Sad.
I wanna cry.
BLAH!
WE had breakfast lunch and dinner and play tons of video games for tickets.
Good times!
No exercise...unless you count me walking around Dave & Busters for 3 hours bouncing from game to game :)

Yesterday I was back at it!! Hit the trail got in 5+ miles!!!
As always it was a great walk and I ran a little. It was nice.
I one day want to run 3.1 miles...HA!

Therapy Session:


She's crying cuz I'm fat.

I'm tired.  I'm disappointed in myself.  I have worked so hard and all i wanna do in give stop and not care anymore.  It's so much easier to eat a pizza and lay in bed than it is to be disappointed by the scale not moving and the measuring tape being the same.  I am not in a plateau.  I am in that " You can't work out a bad diet" place... I not eating good. 

I'm pretty, but No wann be here

Don't wanna be here again.

Last week I had waaaaay too much bread and rationalized it by saying "oh well your eating it before 2".  Bread bloats me and i know thins and I stillllllllll had a sammich everyday last week.
I even had my meal prepped lunches and still went out and spent MONEY!!!!!
I feel like I have lost control and no slogan or motivational pic is going to help me with that.
The break throu kinda happened today or laaaaaate last night.
I started as 273 POUNDS!! That's almost 300lbs.
I can stand be almost 200 but not 300.
I don't want to go back there. I will not go back there.
I was miserable.  Physically incapable and OBESE!!!!
I refuse to go back to that.
I refuse to not have these great climaxes...lol
Must keep going...
Must keep fighting myself to save myself.



I need an accountability partner and a challenge that is interesting. Yup!

Linking up with my favorite, Liz @ Fitness Blondie, Hump Day Blog Hop!!! ( I need a pic for this)


D.

Follow Through Fitness....

I would like to thank the Friday gods for finally gracing us with today. Thank you!
I'm really happy about all the exercise I have done this week.  I'm also quite proud of myself...yup!

Today is F#ck it Friday, but in a good way!
I don't want to do ish!
I don't even want to write.





Today I dedicated this post to beautiful women and their weightlifting asses...

This Bish here is  B-A-D!!!! I would be her surrogate Like for real...She is damn near perfect.  I'm sure she works uber hard and it's working.  Not too much but just enough.  Hard bodied but not Jim Carey as Vera, bodied.  I'm in love with her and her hair!!!  I'm inspired...to one day be the person that wipes the sweat off her brow. I'm inspired not intimidated because I know that If i work as hard as she had to and does that someone will one day write that about me!

Squat. Lunge. Jumping Jack. Donkey Kick.

 Want a great Booty. Do it. Love it.

I just want a flat stomach, a small waist and a fat ass. :)

Is that too much to ask for?

I want to be able to dress like this ALLLLLL the time.  I want to petition the government to take indecent exposure off the table. I actually have something similar to this that I got from Fredrick's 17years ago that I haven't worn in 16years.  Her boobs are great, her abs are awesome! I'm going to continue to eat clean, set goals, stay focused and not give up! I wouldn't say I train but I do do a lil something something! I'm inspired

The Queen mother herself.  I one day hope to have a trainer that will plant her foot in my ass and then yell  "RUN!" and I say with tear streaming down my face, "how fast!" I love this woman.  She's not curvy but she is sexy as all get out and I'm scared just looking at her! I'm motivated.

This is the movement today.  Walking outdoors is soooooooo different than walking indoors.  At home you can stop give up or do just the minimal.  When your out on the trail you can go a little further and a little further knowing that how ever far you go is how far you have to walk back.  Where I walk has hills and mountains and curves (like me) HA!  I go a little further every day.  WHEW!!! Mah feets hurt, my shins may be splint and my booty is sore as the heezy!! I love the booty soreness. Lets me know I put in WERK!!! I have to get a video of me walking...its funny in my head. I walk fast and I have routines to certain songs on my playlist! It's awesome! The 1 walking buddy I have has to jog to keep up with me....LOVE IT! However, I'm sleepy and tired and my muscles need to get back used to walking outside. Boom!

4/3/14

 

Um who's a proud one? ME! ME! I have been walking my tail off!
I'm happy to say that I am catching up with my goal. I was behind nearly 10miles to stay on track for my #100milesin6weeks challenge! Now I'm 1 mile behind! Happy dance!!!


This weekend I'm not going to be lazy.
I'm going to continue the momentum and keep up with the walking and DO the strength training routine that I came up with.
Sunday I'm going grocery shopping for 2 reasons. 1. Meal Prep and 2. My kids will be on Spring Break and I guess I have to feed them. * shrug *


4/2/14

Next week
STRENGTH TRAINING!!!!!!!!!!
More Walking, maybe a little running O__O
Meal Prep Monday!! My favorite! I'm going to try a veggie lasagna!!
I'm going to try to get ahead of of my miles.
 My goal next week is 20miles minimum.







Its Friday and I'm doing my FAVORITE link ups ... Fitness Friday, Five Things Friday and Follow Through Friday

Tell me your favorite Link ups and Blog Hops!
Have an awesome weekend!

D.

Hump yourself!!...

Yup! EVERY time.

Let me tell you a little something about MY self image.

It sucked when I realized that I was a chunky monkey and NEEDED to loose some weight.
It sucked when I looked in the mirror and looked 9 months pregnant when my baby will be 13 next week.
It sucked when the one I love would wrap their arm around my belly and could only make it half way.
AND
It sucked when, last Easter, I have to buy a 3X, XXXL, TRIPLE X, shirt to wear and it WAS NOT flattering.

The community I'm from, in the Atl (black), loves a plump, full-bodied, thick thighed, big boodied, cushioned, something to hold on to kinda woman.
It's not the healthiest but it's loved. HA!

Even with all the things that suck, in my head I'm already a size 10/12 :)
and after a good week of cardio and strength training I'm an 8 :)
It has been like this since I was in my 20's * shrug *

I LOVE me! (especially my boobs and my booty) HA!

Some days I lose confidence and have some self doubt, but EYE am in love with me.  I would date me and sometimes I do.  I enjoy my own company and I even Hi-5 myself sometimes...lol
It's so important to love yourself. Inside and out.

Please don't mistake this as me being arrogant, cocky, or conceited because no no no.
I love me but when someone else tells me I am pretty or have a great smile or that they love me...shy, modest,  embarrasment kicks in. 
I can think it allllll day, but no one else should be able to see it o__0

Why I feel that way?  I O E N O

As I continue on my journey, now when I look in the mirror I don't look 9 months preganant anymore.  I see strength. 
I'm now buying 1X (which is different than an XL) and I'm looking forward to being able to buy a Large
I'm not it that need-to-loose-weight place, I'm LOSING the weight.

I'm D and this is my self-image...lol

In other news:
I hit the trail again yesterday and  yes, again is was FRICKING AWESOME!
I got in a good 5.36 miles, good towards my #100milesin6 Challenge.
I am loving it!

It almost feels too good to be true, but I think Spring is really here.... shhhh... I dont' want to jinx it.
Its so hard to have that get up and go in the winter. 
Want to sleep, eat and hibernate. 
We MADE IT! * Drake voice *

5.36 miles. Need to get these brow done...humph

It's also one of my favorite days, I get to link up with Liz@ Fitness Blondie and Hump Day Blog Hop!

D.   

Joy!!...

Today is not just April Fools Day, it's my brothers Birthday!!!! Happy Birthday little brother!!!!
(he doesn't even know I write a blog so he won't see this. HA!)
Another wonderful thing about today...
NEW GOALS!!!!!!!
I am a goal loving whore bag!
It makes me feel soooooooo go to write them and check them off a list. BOOM!

I don't have any major goals this month, but I do have some goals

1. Walking & Strength Training
2. Remember Why I started
3. Re-evaluate Mental Discipline
4. Meal Prep in Check
5. Sleep
6. Stay on track with AM workouts
7. Buy a Swimsuit!
8. Enter the teens with my weight

I do believe that's a goo amount of goals. 
It's Spring. A new season. Caterpillars turning into butterflies. Buds blooming into beautiful flowers.
Why not have a new perspective on my journey.
Going to spend a few days in the beginning of April figuring out why I self sabotage.

Yesterday I ended March with a BANG!!
The weather was so beautiful yesterday here in Atlanta.  When I got off work it was 83degrees!!!!
I hit the trail! I forced my lazy ass kiddies to put on their shorts and tennis shoes and come with.
It was the most AWESOME walk!
I walked over 5 and half miles and could have gone more if it weren't for that darn sun trying to set!
I FELT MARVELOUS!!!!!
I wanna do it again to today!!
My playlist is still just as amazing and it was last Spring.
The right music, with the right arrangement never gets old.

Sample of my playlist:
Future- B%tches Love Me
Bruno Mars- Walked out of Heaven
Train to Paris - A$$ on the Floor
A$AP Rocky - Problems
Rhianna-Phresh out the Runway
OutKa$t - Bombs Over Baghdad
Bruno Mars - Money Make Her Smile
and 24 more awesome songs with beats between 4 -5mph
and 3 songs at 2mph for the cool down, one  being
Justin Timberlake - Strawberry Bubblegum ( just sexy)

WHEW it was great!

In Other News:
Last night after I posted some pics on Instagram I went to sleep. HA!
I woke up this morning to the most awesome comment, that was positive and thought provoking.
he said "I love seeing your smile in so many of your pics. Usually, ppl look so miserable in their before and during pics. Keep on smiling, and keep chasing that dream girl! Much love and respect."

It was very kind and then I started thinking about all the 9 out of 10 pics of sad faces.
If you are putting in the work, SMILE
If you are loosing inches, SMILE
If you are getting up off the couch, SMILE
If you are doing anything that moves you towards your goal, SMILE

It's hard changing and it's even harder to get up and move. 
Smile !
I'm doing a linky linky to day! The Skinny Health,  Running with Racheal  and Urban Nautrelle check it out!

D.